I was taken aback when my lil sis commented that I look wan one day. On a separate occasion, my dad looked me in the eye and told me to take things easy and not be stressed. My mom said yea, I look it. I was slightly bothered by the fact that the three of them saw the same thing in me but eventually shrugged it off. This past Friday, one of my colleagues, whom I rarely speak to, solemnly asked if I was okay cause I looked pale. My friend nodded in agreement. K well, now I'm worried.
I've always disliked insincere "how are you"s. I'm so used to mechanically answering "oh yea, I'm fine" that I suspect I have convinced myself so. I haven't been acknowledging my feelings lately, I just assumed I will be alright. But now I'm starting to think otherwise. I mean, yea, I'm stressed about work, but that's eustress. Nothing I can't handle. It's the emotional distress that's getting on me. I've always been able to manage my emotions appropriately, but I can't believe it's visible on my visage now.
I figured I had to do something about it and decided that I need to be inspired. My advice to self? Get out of the house and do something different. A change in environment and routine turned out to be extremely therapeutic so I had to blog about my weekend to remind myself of the positive experiences I had.
I woke up early on Saturday, planning to catch the bus to campus, but it was raining. So I laid in bed, caught up with some entertainment shows while eating leftover spaghetti. Grabbed my shoes after lunch, and started walking to campus. The route was still as scary as can be. I really hope the kids are well taken care of emotionally and educationally. By the time I reached campus, I was dripping sweat but could do nothing about it since there was a campus wide power shut down. I headed to the lake and started jogging. As you may or may not know, I'm no jogger at all, but I had the greatest time listening to the whisper of the wind, humming to the rhythm of nature's sweetest melody. I felt so in tune with the world. After a 30 minutes jog, I grabbed a bottle of 100plus and found a place to sit down and blog. My thoughts needed some organizing after all. I wish I had more time to quiet down and reflect upon things but I had to rush back and shower before heading out with a friend. Quick fix at Hokkaido Ichiba and caught the Rise of the Planet of the Apes. I especially enjoyed the reclining seat during the movie, cheehuu. After that, we grabbed desserts from Hokkaido Ice Cream and headed home. I thought I'd be knocked out by then but surprisingly, I felt mentally refreshed. So I picked up from where I left off and blogged till 4 in the morning.
The next day, I woke up just in time for lunch. I wanted to try out my new kettle but scalded myself in the process. I kinda forgot about it until I saw my palm red and swollen. Ate spaghetti again but ended up with a tummy ache this time. After lunch, I quickly headed out to wait for the bus but it never came, so I took a stroll instead. It drizzled. I thought it'd be nice to do something different yet again and so I headed for the gym. I had it all to myself for the first 15 minutes, which I thought was extremely pleasant, and spent another 30 minutes working out while enjoying the music. I then grabbed a can of 100plus from our newly opened 7-11 before heading down to the lake to spend some time blogging. I was distracted by the ducks and was mesmerized by the movement and sound of the fountain half of the time I was there. Went home for a quick shower and drove off in my friend's car later that evening. It's the kazillionth time she's asked me to drive. Usually, I'd decline but since this weekend I'm up to no good, I mean, up for something different, I drove! First time driving on the highway and passing the tow! Beep beep! It was super jammed though.
Well, that pretty much summed up my weekend. I still have a bunch of unresolved issues floating in my head but I feel recharged to deal with them now. Mmm, actually, I don't have time for that yet. First year report due in a few weeks, so... mm... prolonged stress? Sighs.
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