I see, I saw, I've seen

I'm back from my not-quite-relaxing "sight-seeing" trip! haha. Yes! That's how I'd summarize it. hmm, so where should I start?

Airline was such a disappointment. Even though it's a low cost airline, I don't think consumers should need to deal with workers' attitude. If you don't like your job, do something about it. There goes a check mark for Malaysia's tourism and customer service. I'm starting to miss friendly strangers back at Hawaii.

More chaos? Bangkok was a no-go, so we had to buy another ticket to Singapore 48 hours before departure. Lucky we received credit back for the Bangkok tickets after much confusion and trouble. Meaning, more planning to do!

Hmm... Let's see. so I got to meet up with my buddy, sam, strolled through the night market, and tried "smelly tofu" for the first time. Squeezed in a single bed, shivered in cold water shower, and indulged in sam-cooked noodles. As for Singapore, Universal Studios was our best reward.

Anyhow, although it wasn't an incredibly fun trip, I felt like I've seen and learned a lot. Can't get into the details, but I guess I received a lot of warning lights pertaining to life. Pit in front, do not proceed; car crash ahead, please turn left; or traffic light damaged, keep to your right. hah, yes that's about it. I now have a clearer vision of what I should do and what I want to do.

I'M MOTIVATED :)

Wind

I am graduated and unemployed. Yes, I chose to be. I know what I'm doing. I have my own plans. so don't worry and just let me be. so don't judge and just let me free. just wait and you will see :)

Every now and then, music mesmerizes me, giving me a whole different perspective about the world. Today is one of those days.

My flight's tomorrow and I still don't know where I'm going. I have two tickets in my pocket, and one may be going down the drain. To be honest, I'm a little tired to leave home. Why do I feel like people are just wanting me to do everything for them? I need to learn to say no. For now, let me just throw some shirts in my bag and prepare my journey to who-knows-where.

Language

Language is an interesting subject. Though I can hardly make up my mind which language I'm most comfortable with.

I like English when I need to say what I have to say. Just plain and simple. Straight out of my mind, with mmms, hmmms, and a little ah has. but when I can't say things out loud, Chinese is the better choice. It's amazing how much imagination or different directions the same words can lead you to. It's easy to hide feelings behind impartial words. So much guessing, so much uncertainties, so much room for imagination!

Not wanting to forget either language, I have a habit of writing my thoughts in Chinese while I'm at an English speaking country. Now that I'm back at Malaysia, it's turning the other way around! Lucky I need not hide anything ;)

Song of the day: Falling in love at a coffee shop by Landon Pigg

DREAM

DREAM [dreem]

-noun

1. a succession of images, thoughts, or emotions passing through the mind during sleep.

I dreamed a dream, that took away most of my doubts. Now, I just need to strengthen my faith :) Buuuuut, nightmares are bugging me as well. I'm just glad they're not a reflection of reality and everyone is safe and sound :)

2. a vision voluntarily indulged in while awake; daydream; reverie.
DREAM, DREAM BIG! I guess this could be my "new year's resolution," though it's a little late for that. I've been overly realistic and, as a result, set too much boundaries for myself. I need to let my imagination run wild and be less of a control freak, heh.

3. an aspiration; goal; aim.
so I'll just DREAM. That's what I need to learn. Getting out of my comfort zone and just dream. Not settling for what I can do, but challenging what I can't. This is my goal :)